Zooby Zooby Zoo!

voltee ♦ March 26, 2012 ♦ 2 Comments

Item: Dress Color/Fabric: Cobalt, cotton Designer: LAMade Where Purchased: Anthropologie Years Owned: Three

I have a problem with anticipation.
I can’t just let it seep into me slowly.
I open the flood gate wide. I let a torrent into me, and it swallows everything. It rages through me, swirling faster and faster, growing ever more powerful, drowning rational thought and moderation.
Basically, I cease to be a functional human being.
I’m just a swirling cauldron of anticipation.
This is a bad thing for many reasons. First, it makes time go too fast. What do I care about boring, non-event days? I just want to get through them to be closer to the Event. And we all know that time goes too fast as it is, so this is a problem.
Second, once the Event is over, I have nothing to look forward to. Just an endless expanse of empty days. Which shouldn’t be a problem, really, but it depresses me. I can’t help it.
And so I wish I could learn to tame my anticipation, calm it down a little, enough to focus on other things, like basic life. It’s just something I haven’t learned how to do yet.
There are so many things I haven’t learned to do yet.
Well, March is nearly at a close, and I feel as if I’ve wished all the days away in anticipation of Events that occurred this past weekend. Mainly, the Hunger Games movie and the premier of the new season of Mad Men.
They were both quite wonderful, of course, and worthy of a flood of anticipation. But still I wish just a little that I had paid a little more attention to the other days of March that weren’t quite as eventful…
Anyway, Mad Men is a show that just captivates me. The first time I saw it was on my flight to Germany a few years ago. I loved it, instantly. Of course, for the fashion. How I would love to have been born in an era where glamour was so taken for granted!There weren’t many choices for a woman except to be a lady.
I want to be ladylike. What a lovely adjective!
And then I was drawn in by the characters and the drama and the subtlety. But after those initial four episodes, I didn’t get a chance to see the show again until almost two years later, after I had my surgery.
My wonderful friends Lizzie and Vicki got me the first season, and then I ended up watching all three seasons in about two weeks. I couldn’t leave the house. There was also a great deal of pain medication. I may have believed I did actually live in the 60’s for a while…
And when Season Four premiered, Lizzie came to watch with me, and I wore this blue dress, with a white belt and white flats.
In my head I looked like Betty Draper doing housework. But I have a feeling I actually looked more like Sally Draper.
That’s because I used this when I was costuming Bye Bye Birdie, and a fifteen-year old wore it, and I felt too old to ever wear it again.
It’s short. My knee caps show.
Isn’t there a thing where women’s knees aren’t supposed to show ever again after 30?
So I moved this too the Costume Closet for a while. I’m not sure if I will ever wear this in real life. I want to. It makes me feel like Jess in The New Girl!
Is it too little girly? Plus, the fit is a little odd- it’s rather boxy. Not the nipped waist I would like in my retro clothing. But I do like the color. Should it go back it the Costume Closet, or is it time to part?
In closing, I only let myself be a little depressed today after the anticipation was over. I do still have many things to look forward to! Lizzie coming home, summer, The New Girl, a trip with friends, being in a show again, a clean white porch, additional Hunger Games movies, surgery, Vampyre, a family jaunt, the City.
Also, tomorrow.