The One…

voltee ♦ October 12, 2011 ♦ 4 Comments

Item: Blouse Color/Fabric: Zebra, polyester/spandex Designer: Kenneth Cole Where Purchased: TJ Maxx Years Owned: 6ish

Wherein I enumerate things that keep me from writing every day like I want to. 1. Pain in my Former-Good-Leg-Turned-Bad leg when sitting. 2. Self pity. 3. Television shows, particularly if there is singing or dancing involved. 3. Fatigue. 4. Inability to think of a decent title. 5. Excruciating, world-obliterating dental pain. 6. Guilt over not actually getting rid of many clothes. 7. Guilt over shopping at Anthropologie too much. 8. That demon. 9. Fear of repeating myself. 10. Fear of everything else in the entire world. 11. Sudden hatred of my entire musical catalog. 12. Too much beer or wine. 13. Not enough beer or wine. 14. The pit of despair. 15. Overwhelming concern for world affairs. 16. My uterus. 17. Being in the middle of a really good book. 18. Rehearsals for something. 19. Vulnerability. 20. Movies that have quotes saying things like “Blogging is the graffiti of the writing world.” 21. Being unable to wade through the knee-high flood of clothing on my closet floor. 22. Frustration that Trixie has no butt, and that the Salvation Army won’t let me buy one of their display butts. 23. Regret that is suffocating. 24. Netflix. 25. Disputes over whether my recollections are accurate or not. 26. Spontaneous eruptions of contentment. 27. Lingering feelings of inadequacy. 28. The question “Why?” 29. My wonderful bathtub. 30. Commitments to others, such as “husband” and “pets”.
Ok. I think that’s all of them. I felt like if I made a list and had to face them, that perhaps I could conquer them and become more consistent again. We shall see!
At this moment, I have to admit, I have, like, 12 of these situations going on. So tonight isn’t easy. But I have been trying to write about this shirt for three days, and tonight it’s going to happen!
This shirt is a situation 23- I’m not quite certain that I remember correctly when I wore it. But I am sure that it did come from the general era, so the odds are most likely in my favor.
I think that this is the blouse I wore when my lovely Lizzie was going away to college. We had a delightful dinner, full of laughter, Mexican food, and a few tears. The most interesting part of the evening was getting to meet Lizzie’s friend, Annie. It was one of those moments where I am certain a person of monumental importance has just entered my life, and I wasn’t wrong.
I remember seeing both Annie and Lizzie before I knew them at the auditions for Chicago. I had just watched them both in the first show I ever saw at the Center, Into The Woods, and I felt totally out of place amongst such talent. They danced with such power, grace, and confidence at the audition, and they both have that quality that makes everyone in a room instantly drawn to them. I felt completely intimidated.
Then imagine my surprise when I got to know Lizzie, and found out that she is the sweetest person in the world, and that we had so many things in common. Then, in the middle of feeling sad that she was leaving for college, I met a new friend.
I remember Annie being so excited to be meeting someone her age. She said all the things I was thinking, but too shy to say.
Many, many things have happened since that night so long ago. My love for these two amazing ladies has grown to limitless bounds. I am blessed to have such people in my life!
This top, though, I am not sure of. I used to wear shapes like this all the time, but I haven’t really in a while. Many a moon. I can honestly say I don’t own anything else like it!