Ramble On!

voltee ♦ April 4, 2011 ♦ 4 Comments

Item: Blouse Color/Fabric: Cream, cotton Designer: Free People Where Purchased: Urban Outfitters Years Owned: 3
Given the fact that last week held much madness and not a little quantity of pain, I didn’t really have time to absorb the fact that my show is over. I’m no longer in a show. And I have nothing theatrical for certain on the horizon. Sigh.
It’s an amalgam of feeling that is at least 50% sadness, 20% relief, 10% confusion, 10% panic, and 10% regret. The regret part fluctuates the most on any given day. Some days it may even be the highest.
It seems like it’s getting increasingly more difficult for me to balance the demands of my world in theatre, and the stresses of my career, and the turmoil of my actual life. I know that I need a break. What I need to determine, hopefully this week, is how long that break should be.
And so I decided that this week I will focus on my clothes that have enjoyed a bit of life on stage. Starting with this blouse.
Yesterday I spent a truly lovely day at the theater with many truly lovely people. My friend Cate was talking about how she knew her little nephew Ethan would be interested in acting. Instantly I thought of this blouse. Because Ethan wore it on stage in Pippin.
He was little when we did that show. Tiny. I can’t remember how old exactly, maybe 6 or 7? Finding costumes for him that were the right sort of medieval-ly was hard, if not impossible.
I showed this blouse to the talented costumer, Anita, thinking it would most likely never work. But she loved it. All she did was shorten the sleeves, and it made a perfect tunic for him.
And Ethan did a great job. Cate and I reminisced about watching his little ribs shake as he sang “Rivers belong where they can ram-bulllll…” It was adorable, and I’ll never forget it.
That was a really hard show for me physically, as it only ran two weekends and I had some ailment for each. But it was very creatively fulfilling. I loved the choreography and concept that my gifted friend Annie created. I really enjoy getting to be creepy and scary on stage, because it doesn’t happen much. But Pippin brought it all out.
I wish I had been in a different place psychically. And emotionally. I would have enjoyed it so much more.
The blouse, though, I haven’t worn since the show. It isn’t a tunic on me, at all. I think that’s part of the problem. It’s sort of a weird, in between length. I know the picture isn’t the greatest, but it is quite nice. It seems so bohemian-chic, and I love the idea of this. When it’s on my body, however, I have a hard time making it work. I don’t think I’m ready to give up on it, though. Thoughts?

**I’m still not sure of this. Thoughts?