An Exercise In Redundancy.

voltee ♦ December 17, 2010 ♦ 5 Comments

Item: Sweater Color/Fabric: Grey, Merino wool Designer: Banana Republic Years Owned: 7 or 8. Maybe.
I can’t believe that Christmas is less than 10 days away. I just can’t believe it.
I am such an utter, unprepared wreck this year. I don’t understand why I can’t get anything done. I feel like there is a bandit sneaking in to my… something, and stealing hours away from me. I just don’t know where they’re going. I don’t feel like I am any more busy than I have been during other Christmases. I feel like I have less on my plate, actually. I just seem to be less able to cope with anything these days.
We’re still plugging away at the Christmas decorating. My heart just never got into it. I kept thinking that it would come, one day, and it did not.
Nate took matters into his own hands and went all kamikaze with the decorations this year.
I hope he will go kamikaze with the cleaning up after Christmas, too, because I have an inkling that my heart will not be in that, either.
Who can say where my heart is these days?
It did swell a little with love when I pulled out this sweater tonight. This is something that usually only comes around for Christmas. Or some other such special event.
I’m not sure why. It’s not like it’s very expensive, or all that fancy. It does not scream “Special Occasion.”
And yet I still feel like it’s special.
I can’t even remember when I got this. It feels like I’ve kind of always had it.
I think maybe I got it at Eastwood Town Center in Lansing. That has the best Banana Republic in the world there. I spent many an hour there after working at La Senorita. Conveniently, it was both across the street from where I worked, and on my way home. A sweet set up, that!
Sadly, I can’t think of any precise situations when I wore this. I’m sure I have worn it to a Christmas celebration or something. I know that it’s been to church, probably a few times. I think that I may have worn it to a funeral, but I can’t remember whose. I try not to remember clothes and funerals. It just gets too sad.
I am ashamed to acknowledge that this has been a common theme this week, this Unremembering thing. Who can say why? It’s driving me crazy, I have to tell you.
I have been sitting here, doing quite a bit of focused thinking, firing up the rememberer with all my might, and nothing. Not a spark.
But I am still trying. I know I’ll get my groove back eventually. I hope.
I think this all I can do for today, though.
Tomorrow, a different story. Tomorrow is a special day. Stay tuned for special surprises!
I do like this sweater. I want to get it out into the world more, and not keep it shut away for something special. Good idea?

**This is so soft and cozy. Also pretty. I want to keep it.